Sometimes we need to flow with the energy of life and do and learn the lessons we are supposed to do that are the things we don't have control over they just happpen without we can ask to God why, nope the problem is juist POOF there and there is nothing to do about that.
Before we reïncarnate we make some choises and lessons we want to learn to let our soul grow even if it might be the most difficult and hardest thing in the world and life.

All you need to know is that you sould be proud even if you are in the hardest moment in your life, all that can be done is to get trought it, after that you are a stronger person who just had a spiritual and a life lesson. Just enjoy even the hardest things yes it sounds strange but the feeling when it is over is just amazing, enjoy before life is over.